Yeah, yeah, yeah They keep pulling, I keep pushing They keep, they keep pulling, I keep pushing My mind, my mind stretches beyond its dimensions Never to return to its original form, yeah They keep pulling, I keep pushing They keep, they keep pulling, I keep pushing My mind, my mind stretches beyond its dimensions Never to return to its original form My whole life I've been getting drugs That's how it is, it forever was No, I will never ever get enough That's why everything inside my head is fucked
My whole life I've been getting drugs That's how it is, forever was No, I will never ever get enough That's why everything inside my head is fucked
It opened up a gateway that wouldn't close. A high like this, I thought I could control It took a toll, I should've known what I would do When it hit, I was laying naked in a foot of snow Blacked out like a lunar eclipse, thought I was fully clothed In my home, by a wooden stove When I was looking close, it was just a view Of the ditch that I was laying in Man, these fucking pills, I'm really glad I never took alone I peaced out and hit this crooked road back home But I took it slow, cause I know I have no sense in me I'm lost in space, feel like I'm not awake Trying to concentrate on the strange sounds The insides of my body makes How many deep breaths do I gotta take Before I notice that I'm not okay I'm not walking straight, but I don't give a fuck man I just wanna get home The numbness in my throat applies pressure to my neck bones I get close and feel a wave of anxiety Happens to everyone I worry cause I know they ain't as high as me Or as deprived of sleep I need to put my mind at ease I strain my eyes to see As I try to reach for the door handle Damn, fell into it, lost balance Mind twisted, full of intricate thought patterns But I just could not fathom How I'm going from the last night steady Ran a hot bath and got the crack pipe ready Take a blast, type deadly Huge haul that makes me shut down Focus on the hypnotizing buzz sound Puke a little, fall asleep before the come down Used to be some proud I'm disgusted at the scum I've become now I know I gotta stop it, but I don't bother Slipping in and out of consciousness In a tub filled with cold water One foot rest on the gold faucet Eyes shut, covered in old vomit I'm fucked because of a coke problem Among other things I've been dealing with hallucinations Abusing base hits The water's covering my head I pop up in the tub, confused Blank stare, blood dripping from my left ear I need some fresh air Guessing my memory's about as clear As trying to predict the events in the next year It's impossible, examine my face in the mirror Hands were shaking in terror So I started popping pills popping popping pills... I gotta chill Nah, fuck that, I gotta kill And no one around but me Gotta stop talking silly I don't wanna live Real GOD, kill me I hate my life My heart is black My conscience filthy Grip the sawed off And made it my reality Blowing my fucking head off Doesn't really seem that bad to me I used to have a dream Now all I have is brain damage I don't wanna step another foot on the face of the planet Straight up, I had it Fuck it, man, I don't need a motive Woah, fuck Jeff, come on, chill, focus Snap out of it I put down the gun that was loaded Then the last batch of pills kicked in and my heart exploded They keep pulling, I keep pushing They keep, they keep pulling, I keep pushing My mind, my mind stretches beyond its dimensions Never to return to its original form, yeah They keep pulling, I keep pushing They keep, they keep pulling, I keep pushing My mind, my mind stretches beyond its dimensions Never to return to its original form My whole life, I've been getting drugs That's how it is, if it ever was No, I will never ever get enough That's why everything inside my head is fucked My whole life, I've been getting drugs That's how it is, if it ever was No, I will never ever get enough That's why everything inside my head is fucked My whole life, I've been getting drugs That's how it is, if it ever was No, I will never ever get enough That's why everything inside my head is fucked My whole life, I've been getting drugs That's how it is, if it ever was No, I will never ever get enough That's why everything inside my head is fucked